http://www.jemdiary.com/ This rss feed features the 5 newest entries in sami's diary. Mon, 26 Mar 2007 20:18:21 PDT en-us 15 JEMDiary - jemdiary.com 2001-2007 http://www.jemdiary.com/read/Sami/5_Bah___yeah http://www.jemdiary.com/read/Sami/5_Bah___yeah Sat, 20 Dec 2003 19:46:41 PST
I'm sitting here wondering why Chrissy hasn't IMed me today? I don't think she is mad at me or anything...I guess she is just busy.

I am just skipping from one subject to another huh? People hate when I use "..." to connect sentences online. I think its funny though. I sometimes do it just to piss ppl off.

I havent seen Stephen in two weeks as of today. I really miss him...its strange. I still havent given him (or anyone he is related too) their Christmas gift. LOL I need to make it over there soon...before Christmas comes and goes. I dunno when he is going to Knoxville for his family get-together, but yeaaaaaaaah! Anyway, I am about to fall asleep. I think I am gunna call it a night! Its only 9:45...haha!! Oh well!! ttys!

Love
Sammmmmmmmmmmi]]> http://www.jemdiary.com/read/Sami/4_Just_an_Update http://www.jemdiary.com/read/Sami/4_Just_an_Update Thu, 11 Dec 2003 23:42:11 PST
I just got over the worst sinus/flu mixed crap I have ever had. Oh gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood god!! I was so stuffy and achey. I hurt like someone had slapped the piss out of me. I still have a stuffy nose and coughing a little, but I am sooooo much better this week. I was able to finish my final exam today for the last class I needed to take it for. WOO HOO!!! I get to staty outta school for almost a month or more. :-D I love college. I just found out today that my guitar class for next semester will be done in Jackson. That is too awesome because if I get the job I applied for, then I will be able to kill two birds with one stone. :-D Life works out sometimes!! Anyway on with other news....

I've also been thinking a lot about Stephen. Is that a surprise to any of the people who have been keeping up with my diary? LOL Didn't think so. I dunno....I am so stumped on what else to get him. I have him a few little things that he can use, but I want something else. Maybe a DVD or a CD will do, the problem is I dunno which one or what CD/DVD he wants?!?!?! I asked JonJon today and he helped a little. I want going to get him LOTR, but I dunno if he liked it, so I guess I will ask him tomorrow. *shrugs* He really means a lot to me. I've never felt like this before because everytime he is around me, I automatically feel happy and giddy at the same time. My heart starts to skip beats and race...I bet my eyes are huge when they look at him. Man....I dunno if I am in love with Stephen or not...I honestly don't know. I don't wanna be, but something grabs me and pulls me in when it comes to him. I love his sweet smile and innocent eyes....most of all I love his personality. His personality makes him so...awesome. He can be so stupid (playfully) but I find it so attractive. I guess I am strange. There is a saying that goes: "No one is perfect until you take them in and make every imperfection the most perfect anyone could ever know." I guess that's what I do? I mean Stephen is by far the most imperfect person I know (okay maybe not, but you know what I am saying), yet I find every single flaw absolutely amazing or sweet or unique. I know just a few weeks I was bitching about him not talking to me...but even then, I saw him as an Angel. Maybe I am in way over my head? I mean...is it normal to feel like this? *shrugs* My friend Amanda told me that I was head over heels in love with him....but I dunno. Man, this is tough to figure out. I guess I won't even try....and see where I end up? *sighs* I'll wait and see what happens. :)]]> http://www.jemdiary.com/read/Sami/3_BWHAHA__ http://www.jemdiary.com/read/Sami/3_BWHAHA__ Thu, 4 Dec 2003 15:39:51 PST
Sami the Elf says:
so uh what did you get me??
Sami the Elf says:

Santa's Little Helper says:
nice try
Santa's Little Helper says:
ull like it
Sami the Elf says:
give me a hint!!
Sami the Elf says:
just a little hint
Santa's Little Helper says:
ok
Sami the Elf says:
pwease
Santa's Little Helper says:
its summin u like alot lol
Sami the Elf says:
nooooooooo
Santa's Little Helper says:
lol
Sami the Elf says:
if its not Stephen....its not big lol
Sami the Elf says:

Sami the Elf says:

Santa's Little Helper says:
lol
Sami the Elf says:
ooo thats what I want for Christmas!!! I want Stephen gift wrapped in a pair of boxers and a Santa hat....with a bit bow around him!!!!
Sami the Elf says:
OMG that is so kinky
Santa's Little Helper says:
hehehehe
Sami the Elf says:
big*
Santa's Little Helper says:
only if i get Sammy the same way
Sami the Elf says:
hahha hell yeah girl!!!
Santa's Little Helper says:
hehe alright!

My god!! we are nuts, but that is really kinky though. He is pretty hot!! haha Anyway, just a funny little update!! :) I am off to take more meds for coughing!! haha (love ya!!)

Sami

PS: Sam!!! WOO HOOOOO!!! I can't wait until this weekend!!]]> http://www.jemdiary.com/read/Sami/2_The_Email http://www.jemdiary.com/read/Sami/2_The_Email Wed, 26 Nov 2003 21:34:10 PST Mood: Stressed

Hmmm I don't think I have ever felt so relieved and scared at the same time. I wrote Stephen an email explaining how I felt and all the other crap that goes along with it. I dunno exactly how he is going to react to it, but I am guessing not good? It wasn't the nicest letter I have written to someone. I was just so pissed off at the fact that a few nights ago I tried to call him and he gave me the fuck you button (you know where you call someone's cell and they push silent really quick and it goes to their voice mail) on his phone and then come to find out he fucking blocked my MSN sn last night. Honestly, would anyone let another person treat them like that? *shrugs* Maybe I am a retard for doing it and screwing up something that wasn't bad in the first place, but I am sick and fucking tired of him ignoring me. I will not be quiet about it and I will not be overlooked. I knew something bad was going to happen soon between him and myself. I just knew it. Because usually when things are going really great, SOME UNSEEN FORCE screws around with it and I am back to hating myself for doing something wrong to him. Nope, I'm not doing it any longer. I don't think so. I think in a way he sees that he can walk all over me because I am too nice to him. I've never been a bitch to him (I don't think) until now. See, he won't communicate with me, so how am I supposed to know if everything is cool or something is wrong?? Its just stupid. I know Chrissy is probably ready to pull her hair out beause I complain about it so much. So, I finally realized I needed to bring it to his attention instead of telling everyone else besides him. I honestly think I am scared to lose him....but I dunno. I am really confused about everything. Chrissy has been such a sweetheart about everything....and she helped me get the nerve to actually do it. Anyway....I am doing okay at the moment...so no one worry...yet.

In other news, my family had Thanksgiving dinner tonight. It was good....and I still feel like I over ate lol. What is so shocking about it, I managed to cook it by myself. Pretty amazing eh? lol Well, I think I am going to take a shower and get ready to babysit allllllll day tomorrow. haha!! Anyway....goodnight guys.

-Love-
Sami

PS: Happy Turkey Day and be thankful for one thing at least!]]> http://www.jemdiary.com/read/Sami/1_Today_Was_Hell_ http://www.jemdiary.com/read/Sami/1_Today_Was_Hell_ Mon, 17 Nov 2003 22:25:35 PST Song: "The First Cut Is The Deepest" - Sheryl Crow (Rod Stewart/Cat Stevens Cover)
Werd of the Moment: frog-o-licious
Food of the Moment: Does air count?

Wow! I didn't think Monday's were supposed to be this busy!! I had class this morning from 8:05 to 10:00. I swear, that woman can be the most boring person!! Anyway, So I left school and went to my grandmother's house. I spent the rest of the day driving her around Jackson. That took about 7 hours of my day. *grrrrr* When I got home, I had a ton of homework to do. I still haven't finished it. Blah... :( It makes me mad!! I have to have my portfolio completed for my English class by next Tuesday. I also have a term paper due the 2nd of Dec, AND 3 finals to study for. Don't be surprised if I am ranting and raving on here until this semester is OVER!! YOu might as well get to know me a little better...I rant about everything. There is one GREAT topic that I can go on for days about.....guys. Yes!!! The infamous rejects for humans. *sigh* This guy I like has been really distant to me lately. I guess he is just sick or maybe I just don't want to let go of it. A whole bunch of shit went on between his ex, his ex's ex, and me. Its too complicated to explain!! Be glad I won't get into it!! haha You'll have to read about 678475276452 pages before it ends. Anyway, I guess I am going to go take a LONG hot shower and turn some music on. I really need to relax before finals. *sigh* I'm outtie people!

- Sami]]>