shanni1smiles's Diary

hey (i dont have the energy to be clever today)

im stuck in the house for the week since i forgot to ask my mom if i could go to early tennis training at my school. This reallllly sicks because im incredibly wound up and need a good workout. I tried to call my friend Shannon and ask her the details yesterday so that maybe i could still go but it was too late my mom said, because she didnt tell the baby-sitter that she'd have to watch my little brother instead of me.

I was crying yesterday because i realized how i wasted my summer once again and how im letting my life get away from me. I talked to my mom about how having a job had put a damper on the rest of my summer and she said that thats how my life would be. Now that realllly got me fired up! She tod me that once i grew up and got a job that it would take up all of time and energy and force me into routine, into a (boring) life like hers! Well I shot back that I wouldnt, I REFUSE to have a life like hers. I AM going to be a musician! Wheather i make two million or two hundred dollars doing it, im gonna do what makes me happy!

That got me thinking about how my dad had told me, years ago that he was going to put me in guitar lessons. Of course, in usually Christopher (real name) fashion, that never happened. This summer, i was going to use my summer job money to pay for lessons, but i barely have enough to buy clothes to go back to school in.

I dont want to talk about Icky right now, so i wont.

Lata Daze My evil minions!