shanni1smiles's Diary

"Cuz We Cool" (We're Cute and We're Funny and...We're TROUBLEMAKERS)

hahaha! Me n Chuz are gonna start a t-shirt company. We're randomas hell and we think what we say is funny so we said..."Why not." I have so many quotes, from chats with Icky alone, that I think would sell to kids like us...who are cool. And then of course all the posers with daddy's checkbook will follow because they can be Lil'Kim on Tuesday and Ashlee Simpson on Thursday if they smile wide enough. HAHAHA! I tickle myself.

I always feel like i have so much to do and so little time but then when i wake up the next day, i wind up going back to sleep again without ever have completed anything at all. Then i just get more stressed out. I think i need one of those day planner things, so that I can stop making plans to hang out with my friends from Korea and Austrailia on the same day. (Yeah Right)

I wonder if Icky and I will really get married. I hope we do. Gotta find a college first. He says "We have to be successful!" and i get it now. I dont want to have to struggle like my parents. I dont want to have to choose between eating and paying the rent. NEVER will there be an eviction notice on my front door.

I cried really hard the other night because i looked in the mirror and FINALLY saw how pretty i am. Then i realized that i have alot to be proud of. Ive done alot on my own and ive worked realy hard for the things that i wanted the most. I was open to new things and experiences and people and although I may not be as popular as Icky (my, how the tables have turned!) or AS pretty as Elizawetch...that is why i am me and they are...well, them. HA! I only have to compete with myself and i WILL BE better than ever before. Im going to leave the past behind and say "well yeah...i was her then. but maybe she and i together make up someone better...!"

im babbling now. :)  lata daze (if you know what i mean...cuz i dont)! Lol!