shanni1smiles's Diary

Everyday turn, turn, turn. (Earn what you burn)

Im tired...all the time. Thats nothing new. The things is, im trying to turn my life around and its alot harder than I thought it would be. When I go back to school, I want to be able to say that I accomplished something over the summer. I've been trying to volunteer, but everywhere I look , they say that I have to be at least sixteen! Im thinking about lying...but I dont know. I just want to get some real life experience! Im tired of coming home from work at one o'clock and wasting the rest of the day! I want to get out and help someone, talk to someone, meet new people, make MY OWN FUN, HAVE MY OWN LIFE! I wonder if I gave one of these places a big speach and told them how eager I am and how dedicated I would be, if they would give me a chance....even just a trial offer. I dont want to have the only thing that I look forward to everyday be the POSSIBILTY of hanging out with friends that almost never come through. I feel like im going backwards, but I wont let that happen. I need to start...living and stop moping.

I went to the mall on friday and the taste if chicago on saturday. I dont know what im doing today. Most likely nothing..what a waste of a day. Whats Icky doing....out playing baseball with some team somewhere. If there's anyone I need to get like, its him. He's always doing something. I want SOOOOOO badly to be like that. So im gonna make it happen.

Im DYING to go to the Coldplay concert but I dont really have anyone to go with. Cholin said he would go with me...but you never know with him. So now i've done everything but put an add on a billboard! I want someone to go WITH. Im not going to pay for them, I cant afford it really, sorry.

If you know of any place where I can volunteer in Chicago or the South-Suburbs or if you're going to one of the Coldplay shows in chicago, comment. Thanks :)