hiei9957's Diary

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well alot of things have been happing in my life that i dont know where to begen. well on monday after staying up all night from sunday to monday morning talking to my x greenz he haa broken up with me. he got tired of my shit like what the fuck....he told me that i got to put my self first b4 my friends. That is never going to happen at all...and he also thinks that i am going no where in life. that pissed me off because he dont really know me. like right after he broke up with me i found out that he has been cheating on me. i confronted him about the cheating and of corse he denied it. i belive chris told me that he was cheating on me. i mean i dont really care any more because i dont need him in my life. every one says that i can do better then his punk ass. i doubt that he really cared about me at...anyway.

um yea i have been happy regardless of what has been going on.  i dont know why but i am and its really weird..i have internet at home so i have been chilin on the computer blogging and stuff. i have been spending alot of time on stickam talking to my juggalo family.....i kinda forgot about this blog but i rembered about it. well i got all my hair choped off not to long ago its growing back...i love my short hair...it took to much work when it was long. i got kiced out of mcti because i dont have the work exp or the stanima so now i got to go get a job...witch is next to impossible because of the shity economy. i do get cash asstance so i do got some money witch is welfair...greenz had a problem with that and he said that niggerz get paid to sit on there ass. i was so fucking pissed cuz nigger mean ignorant and im not black.

i like 3 other people. bill,anthem and chirs. bill dont want me to like him because he dont want to hurt me. he also wants me to flash him. witch is not going to happen because im not that kind of person. anthem is untouchable because so many people like him. I should have went out with anthem when i had the chance then i would have been happyer. i am not entirely sure about chris but im just friends with all three of them.yea i am happy but lonley at the same time. im not really sad...hmm....fuck i dont know what i want to do any more. im just tired of being alone and i thunk that i found the right guy. but i didnt and im hurtin cuz of it. i hope that i find the right guy soon...!!!

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