bambino_dei_braxtons's Diary

My Love,

I hope you know how much I love you and how much I miss you! Every day feels like hell not being able to look into your brown eyes. I feel lost with out you beside me. Everyday seems to drag on and on. I wanted to spill out every last thought that is in my head and tell you how lonely I feel without you. I want you to no that everything you read is the honest truth. Imp not going to hold back these feelings any longer.

I sat down and really thought about everything we last said and I want you to know that when I told you that I was the best that you will ever have and that I was done, it was a lie I was hurt and scared and afraid that I have lost you for good. I no it was hard for you to put up with my attitude and I no it was hard when you moved in and had to deal with my family but baby YOU are the reason I want to get up in the morning, your the reason why I never want to do stupid things any more.

I had to put up with your attitude and I use to think that I was wasting my time. What I've learned in these past months is that I would give everything to be with you and be able to be in your arms again. I will even put up with your smelly feet and not complain if I can be with you.

I miss our talks and your laugh. I miss the walks in the rain and the crying. I miss your hands caressing my body and the sensation I feel. I can still fell your breath on my skin and the taste of you. When I close my eyes I still see your face. When it rains I will walk in it but it only makes me feel lonely. No matter how much I want to I cant get over the feeling that I’m losing you. I promise I will try to under stand and try to accept this set back.

Baby please, please tell me that this all will be over soon and I can be back home with you like I’m suppose to be. I don’t want to loose you I don’t want to give you up, I wont give up with out a fight. Baby Please tell me I can come back home and you will be there waiting for me! I need you and you need me. I’m scared Bobby please tell me you are still in love with me, damn it this isn’t fair.

                                                     Mit jedem Zoll meiner Seele,

                                                                                                   Your love.

P.s.

Please don’t dwell on my mistakes because I’m

 not dwelling on yours. I know she is our main

problem but I’m not willing to give up if your

not. Just tell me I still have a home.