Aaron Saray's Diary

I keep thinking of her...

Every time I hear about "your girl" or "the girl" in reference to guy stuff, I keep thinking about this girl. 

Let me explain:

I'm reading this book published by Men's Health.  It's talking about all kinds of stuff in regards to men's relationships with women. Some of it is worthwhile in my situation (it goes into how to properly show apprecation and respect to women in the workplace) and some of it not really at this time (what the question "do you love me?" means from your wife - or moreso - what is the significance of such a question).  

The book continues to go on about your girlfriend, your wife, etc, and I can't help but picture one person into each one of those.  It's a really weird thing - but its making me sad now.  Its a girl that I am not with - and I doubt I would get - and I even doubt our potential compatability...  but yet she keeps popping back into my head as I'm reading.

The book tells the guy to be sensative to the woman and tell the woman that you appreciate her.  I want to tell her I appreciate her.

It tells the guy to share in the girl's excitement. I want to share in her excitement.

It tells the guy to remind her often that he loves the girl. I want the same.

It is so frustrating right now - I can't say "I just want it to go away" because I don't.  Yet - I think if - through some magical force - this girl were forced to be with me - it would not be the best for her - and I want the best for her.  So - what is it that I should be doing right now?  What should I be trying to think?