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Tyrant's Diary

life is...

Added: May 12, 2004, 3:45 pm  (71 views)
Well now.


I was doin pretty good today for a bit. I dont know how I feel now. I'm in computer apps class. Maybe 45 minutes ago she told me that my best friend asked her out, and she said yes. Yep, thats right, the girl who dumped me is going out with my best friend. excellent? I wish.

idk, maybe this is a good thing. prolly not. smashing pumpkins is a good band, ya know?

Ever since I one that award for drama, my drama teacher has been flipping out trying to make me awsome so she looks good for the advanced drama class for choosing me. She privately taught me the entire class period. Suprisingly, it helped me get better.


idk. I tell myself I dont like her. In reality, its prolly just animal instinct kicking in, not real love or anything. Animals(humans) are meant to find a mate, and continue the race. Just insticts man, insticts. Im only in highschool, there will be others. Idk why she searched my cell phone today. She gave me a wierd look afterwards cause there were "notes" from another girl, but why should she care? Its not like me and her are going out. Everyone is laughing at me behind my back. Well, I dont blame my friend, he has the insticts too. He's a nice kid too, I guess he deserves it. I just wanna be happy sometime too, ya know? Remember, its just insticts tay, its just instincts. (tay is my nickname)

I'm in computer apps right now. I finished my typing work after a few days, so I have nothing to do for the weeks we spend on the "MicroType Pro Purple Section". Lame. Oh well, I guess I'm supposed to be a fast typer. This gives me a good oppurtunity to think, I guess.


Man, everyone has a boyfriend. There are just no girls left for me. I cant stand it. I've been alone all my life, and I cant take it anymore.

idk what i'm going to do tonight. hopefully nothing stupid. I prolly wont. I wonder when HZ will be back up....BigA, any news on that one?

The world is such a confusing place.


Its cool how my drama teacher is letting me do the Hackers Manifesto for my final. She gave me some good pointers too, which is nice.

I did well on my presentation in English today. Like usual, I had the entire class cracking up. I think this stuff is starting to make my old self come back. Too bad that its too late, cause everyone has a boyfriend. She really changed me, man.

Glare.
Run.
You cant stop us.
You cant stop me.
The rest are gone.
We are left.
But for how long?


I had a violent dream last night about killing people with a civil war rifle. kinda freaky. But I remember, if I hadnt of killed them, they wouldve killed me and my friend, so it was more self defense. Aggresive and enjoyful self defense.

Where is my mind?

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