Shadestar's Diary
Heavy Heart
Added: November 15, 2006, 7:31 pm (
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I don't know why,but usually I have had a large weighed down feeling of sadness. I've always thought that when they say your heart aches when you're sad, I thought it was an expression. I know why I'm sad, but it's such a silly reason that I feel that it shouldn't be the reason. But why explain it. It's silly and pointless, and cannot be fulfilled. But that's partly the reason why I'm sad. And even if someone says anything is possible, this I know is not. Or at least it never will be in my life time. I'd like to not think about it, but I can't. I always get sucked in to daydreams of how life would be if my wish was fulfilled. I'm always happy when I daydream. I get sucked in so much that it feels real. But when I snap out of it sadness overcomes me for realizing that it is not real. I wish reality would go away. I wish I could always be in a daydream so that my wish would be fulfilled. But I wish it could be fulfilled in reality more. I sound spoiled, but let me say that this wish would help the world, in a strange fantasy like way. Sometimes I just wish I could go in to a daydream, never to return to reality.
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