LittleMe's Diary

crazyness x2

  Its been a little while since i wrote because things have been so crazy. I dont even know where to start or if i can tell the whole story at this point. You'd think my life was a bad soap opera. Well im still prego....with twin girls. im exited and nervous and sad at the same time. Ive been learning how to drive so il be getting my liscense soon....bout time. i was plannign on going to school but i dont want to have to take a semester off and then start in the middle.i know i just wont feel like going or il forget everything which is why im going to wait till after they are born. Supposed father is in florida working and fixing up a condo we are going to live in.....supposedly. i dont know about the whole moving away thing but it would probably be best and he would pay for me to go to school. That is if its him.....and thats where the story turns UGLY. its between sweet guy who hasnt been in jail for drug dealing and piercer guy who has. I didnt cheat on anyone....it was something that happened when jerkoff and i broke up for a few weeks and i cant tell because we got back together and the time was so close. Not to mention that sweet guy has dated someone i know and im pretty sure he still has feelings for her. or maybe im wrong...he said he doesnt and he wants to take me with him. Made me feel all warm inside but the truth is i dont know hm as well as i wish i did. I cant be with him if i dont have those feelings. Most people fall in love then have kids...guess im the exception. I really do hope they are his because otherwise im going to be stuck with piercer guy i cant get over but that fucked me over my whole life. i sound like a tramp....lol....its not really funny but i prefer to see the funny side of all this than be completely helpless feeling. oh...i know everything will be ok eventually....maybe by the end of the year....or the beginning of the next. ive always been impatient..........