GurlInLuv's Diary

Ugh... It's Over

so i got a little too excited to quickly about me and v's relationship...

all of a sudden she just stopped talked to me. i don't understand why. the first reason was that a family friend died. then she got sick and was in the hospital. then she stopped giving me reasons and started ignoring me. i would text her that i miss her and so on. i got a text from her last fri saying that she was sorry she was being a bitch and that she would email me in the morning and let me know what is going on. i never got an email. i sent her an email. nothing. i texted her and let her know that i would wait for her but she needs to let me know what is going on. i asked her if she still wanted there to be an "us"? i asked her if someone found out about us and that's why she stopped talking to me? nothing. so last night i gave her a deadline... i told her that she had until tonight to give a reason why she was ignoring me had to let me know what was going on or i was going to delete her from my life. well i got nothing. so i deleted her out of my phone and then when i went onto her myspace it said that her myspace had been deleted or the user deleted it. so i just deleted her. i don't understand. i REALLY liked her.

and matt doesn't understand what it's like to be bi... he keeps telling me, "well you got me still, why are you so upset?" i tell him b/c i'm going to miss her and i hate it when people just can't tell me what's going on. i wish that if she didn't want to be with me anymore that she would have just told me. whatever.

then last fri i went on a date with this other girl. yeah, that didn't work out. don't get me wrong she was gorgeous! but we just didn't fit. she was too much on the party side, wasn't married, didn't have a bf, didn't want to have a bf. she knew she was BI and had been with plenty of girls so she was looking for someone a little more experienced, and looking for someone that wasn't tied down with a husband. and i totally understand. i'm looking for someone kinda in the same boat as me, with the whole experiencing thing. i was someone that had never really been with a girl so we can explore together. haha i'm looking for another valencia. a girl that is hot and exploring! i just wish she was still with me. whatever!

i was so lucky to have found her and now she's gone.

and as far as finding another girl that is hot, good luck with that one. most of the girls (no offense) are butch and i'm not into that. i'm a girly girl searching for a girly girl.

ahhh! if anyone can help me down here in san diego PLEASE DO!

i guess that's it for now. i'm going to go read before matt gets home.