GurlInLuv's Diary

Irritated

I'm really irritable today. I don't know what it is. Maybe b/c I didn't get much sleep last night b/c I was up pratically puking. Grrr... But ever since Matt moved in I feel like my privacy and my normal activities have been taken away. He hogs the TV now. He was home when I was on my break and my daily routine got all messed up. Then when I come home he starts asking me if I can figure out how to do something for him on the computer so i don't even get to relax right when I get home from work. Then usually when I get home I watch the Gilmore Girls at 5. The TV was on the SciFi channel he was outside so I changed the channel and before that he wasn't even watching it he was playing his guitar then the second I change it he says that he was watching it. So I have to mess up my daily routine so he can watch a stupid gross zombie movie. And now what I am supposed to do? I go sit some where while he is watching his stupid gross movie. Grrr.... Then he had today off, he watched porn, I don't know why but it bothers me and then he gets mad at me b/c it bothers me, but it does I can't help how I feel. Now I'm wondering if the is going to work the second time around. It's like Matt and I aren't meant to be married and aren't meant to live with each other. It always gets screwed up when we start living together. I don't know. I'm just scared now. And I want to watch my show! Grrr! Whatever.

I don't know what I'm suppsoed to do. Should I talk to him about it? Or just leave it alone and let him screw up my routine. I'm a person that cannot have their routine screwed up. (I think I have a little OCD). But if my routine is messed up I'm cranky all day. Like in the morning before work I have the do everything the same or I feel weird. And I always have to have a waffle and chocolate milk for breakfast EVERY MORNING. I never need it to be different, in fact if it different like if I don't have waffles I either have to go tot he store and buy some or just suffer.

AAHHHHHHHH!!! Gotta go Matt won't leave me alone.