GurlInLuv's Diary

MY HUSBAND!

i have the greatest husband alive! and although we still are not living together he is the greatest man i know. there is just so much about him that is so awesome. i don't even think i can get it all out in here. i have just been having good day after good day.

you see, i have this anger problem... lemme me explain by telling you about my day in detail and tell you how the day would have gone if i hadn't changed my brain process and hadn't gone for help...

this morning i woke up, not wanting to  get out of bed, like i usually do and this would have caused me to have a bad day since i had school the night before i wouldn't want to get out of bed and go to work, so that in itself would make me have a bad day. anyways, i decide that i'm going to get up and try to wake-up, i do my make-up, eat breakfast, then when i'm going to go get dressed, i have nothing to wear (well no work clothes clean, since i have special "crappy" clothes i wear to work.) so i'm trying to find something to wear.... normally would have pissed me off, then i step on some glass (i had dropped a picture frame a few weeks ago and the glass broke, thought i cleaned all of it up, some must have gotten into my closet). this would have made me really upset. i was fine, just a little cut. then, i get to work and it's piper's day, i don't usually get along with her, i think she's stupid... so anyways, she had taken brian potty (supposedly he's potty trained, but he has many accidents, to gretchen and i he does not seem potty trained, more like the parents are...lol) so she was bringing him back from the potty and says to me that he had just had an accident and that i need to take him to the bathroom before we go outside... bothers me b/c why should i have to be potty trained too all b/c these parents want the lower tuition price, it's not fair. anyways, i took him and several other kids to the potty before we went outside. normally all that would have royally pissed me off and ruined my day, since everything would have pissed me off in the past. and of course my kids are always adventurous, so that it always crazy, i would just always let it get to me more than i did these past few days. now, when i was going on my break, this for sure would have ruined the day for me, i'm driving and i stop at a stop light to turn left, the light turns green and the lady in front of me is just sitting there, finally she goes and she is going SO SLOW! the speed limit is 45 and she is going like 25 or 30, finally when i get aorund her i get stuck behind this huge truck hauling something and there is too much traffic so i can't get around, then when i get up to the light i need the light turns yellow, haha i go anyways, totally had time to stop, but decided i didn't want to, hardly made it to the other side, the light had turned red. then there was just so much traffic and road work being done, that this road work guy gets out of his truck, has his door wide open and here i come, i brake and he's just taking his sweet time getting out of the car, walking in the street, i was like forget this and i went past him. this was what i was thinking at the time, "DOESN'T ANYONE KNOW I'M ON MY BREAK AND I WANNA GET HOME SO I CAN EAT!!!" lol of course they don't! so anyways, i get home and normally i would have just let that ruin my day i decided to get over it. it was hot today and i had worn pants to work, so i changed into shorts ans went back to work. i was in my classroom working on my bullentin boards when piper comes in (remember, she doesn't like me, we don't get along very well) and she tells me that my shorts are too short. i told her that i have worn them here before and nothing was said, she said, well i think they're too short and walked away. whatever, again something that would have upset me i just let it go.

then i get home from work and matt calls me, i knew something was up b/c he never calls me that early. he went negative in his account so he needs to borrow some money. i told him i would give him 20 bucks and i would deposit 20 bucks in his account (since my name is still on it) so that way we counteract the withdraw since it had not gone through yet. well, this was 4:50 when we decided all this and i knew for a fact that my bank closed at 5 and i wasn't sure about his bank. so i rushed to the bank. no big deal if my bank was closed i could use the atm... well it jammed! the lady in front of me jammed the atm. so i had to hurry up and go inside, it closed in 5 minutes... then the line was long and only one teller open. then when it's my turn the guy is taking forever... i didn't know what time matt's bank closed. so when i get the money out i go over there and they close at 6, thank god! so then i deposit the money, the lady asked me if i knew it was overdrawn and i said yes and she told me that it had just gone through but there was no fee yet and the deposit might counteract it but she can't make any guarantee. i said ok and left.

ok, so all this might not seem like a bad day to you but to me it would def be a bad day and i would have made it worse if i argued with matt and believe me i can always find a reason to argue! but i didn't. i have learned to take it one minute at a time. a lot of people say to take it one day at a time and yeah, i do that no, but now i'm learning to even take it at one minute at a time. there is nothing you can do about things like the atm jamming... shit happens! i'm learning. and i have been more relaxed!

and well the reason why i started this out with matt being the greatest husband ever is b/c he listens! i asked him to let me know when he notices a difference with me... and tonight he thanked me for being so relaxed and not being a "psycho" as he calls it. i thanked him for noticing.