GurlInLuv's Diary

People Show Their True Colors After A While.

well let me tell you today was some day. well actually it all started on thursday...

thursday night: i decided i wanted to buy a fish so i wouldn't be so lonely anymore. so cori came with me to wal-mart to get one. we're leaving and decided to stop by my apartment to put the fish away. so i text message stacey (the roommate) to let her know that me and cori are stopping by. she texts me back saying that she's not going to be home. so whatever. we go and we get into the apartment and i'm washing the fish bowl. then cori starts asking me stuff about stacey saying ya know she's not home much what if she up and leaves aren't a worried. stuff like that. cori said that i said something about not liking stacey's friends. it's true, i don't, but i'm nice to them when they come over, i'm not a rude person, i guess you could call me fake b/c i'm nice to people i don't like only b/c i want to keep things civil. anyways, here is the true story of what happened next: cori wanted to be nosey and look in her room. i said that i didn't care i knew cori wasn't going to take any of her stuff and i'm sure stacey's friends have wanted to and have looked in my room i don't care. so cori opens the door and then shuts it really fast and says there is someone in the room. i said how could anyone be in the room stacey is not home. she said well there is someone in there go look. i said i'm not looking so i knock on the door and stacey answers. i said oh sorry we thought you weren't home she says that she just text messaged me but i didn't get it is what i told her really i left my phone in the car. i did get it. well anyways, i didn't think stacey was going to say anything. BUT i get a text the next day from her saying "considering the fact that you though i wasn't home why did your friend look in my room" well i wasn't about to say that cori wanted to be nosey (yes i feel bad about this) so i said that we heard something (we have said so much now we believe it). so i told her that i looked. she said that she wants no one to go in her room and that she appreciates that i respect that. i told her that i was sorry but if i hear something i'm going to look. (my reasoning is that i'm the main person on this apartment besides matt and i don't want her stashing a person or some kind of animal) if she does anything bad it would be me and matt getting in trouble not her. anyways, this has been carrying into this weekend.

friday: she text messaged me those things that i said up there. i remembered that the rent was due the next day (today) so i reminded her that i need her half of the rent. she said ok and to set our "sent agreement" (aaron help me out here what did she mean) on the table. i didn't know what she meant told her that and told her what her half was. i got nothing back. so anyways i went to gretchen's didn't get home until 1:30 in the morning i had texted her to see if she was coming home she wasn't sure. when i came home and found out she wasn't home i texted her to find out if she got her half of the rent yet she didn't respond. i texted her again with something. no respond. i texted her again as my final text telling her that i need her half by noon the next day (saturday; today). then matt decided to come over and stay the night at 3 in the morning so i text her to let her know (this is the rule). she then tells me that she just got home. then walked in the door. then matt came and we went to sleep.

saturday: matt woke up at about 9:15 in the morning and said he had to go hang out with his cousins that are in town. said we would talk later. i tried to go back to sleep but couldn't. so i got up and went to make breakfast. so i'm in the kitchen and i hear stacey talking, thinking maybe she's on the phone. OH NO! she had her friend stay the night and didn't tell me! BIG NO NO! you make think that this is something little and i should not be upset about this but it is common courtesy and it was something we agreed on so the other would be aware when someone is at our house. i trust no one. so i was pissed. i then ate and went to take a shower. before i got in i texted her and reminded her about the rent and told her that my bank closes at 1 in the afternoon so she needs to get to me with enough time before my bank closes. and i told her that next time i would appreciate it if she tell me when she has a friend over. she then texts me back which a message that says, "i'm getting my half of the rent right now and i don't pay rent to have another mother." oh i was royally pissed. i didn't know what to say. anyways, to make an already long story from getting longer we texte messaged back and forth arguing until finally i ended it b/c this was the last thing i wanted on my saturday. i was supposed to have a good day, hang out with cori then bethany maybe matt. i wasn't going to let her bring it down.

AND i'm really sick of people when they get upset with me or want to argue with me they try to always make me feel so guilty or feel bad about myself. stacey was trying to do that and matt does that sometimes when we argue. and i'm really sick of it. i'm a good person and i don't think people she putting me down and trying to make my self-esteem even lower than it already is. my looks is not a problem with me, i have always been told i'm pretty and i believe it, but as far as the person that i am or am trying to be people always seem to want to change it. i don't get it.

anyways, so stacey and i are being civil with each other probably only b/c we live together.

OH NO! i'm getting so tired but i have so much more to say.

ok:

1) i got a second hole in my ears today. very interesting. I LOVE IT!
2) i bought matt a shirt today when i went shopping. i have never bought him clothing before so i'm not sure EXACTLY what he likes but i'm hoping he'll like it. and i wrapped it. but i had no tape all i had was tissue paper and stickers from my scrapbooking stuff. so i decided that at each part wher tape needs to go i will put a sticker that says something. so on the outside the first thing that he sees says, "i love you", then when you turn it over to start opening it, it says,"my heart is ever at your service". then when you take that off it says "always and forever" then the last one says, "i miss you". i really hope he likes it. and i wrote him a little letter too. i love doing that kind of stuff for him and i haven't done anything like that for him in a long time. so that's why i did it.

i really miss him.

i guess that's it. i'm falling asleep right now. i really hope that matt doesn't end up wanting to come over. he is so hard to say no to. and i have to wake up early and go to church. i have monday off though so i get to catch up on sleep!