Escapist's Diary

I need something to make me happy

So, I haven't written anything happy or nice or exciting or anything like that in a long time. Has all the happiness left my life? I hope not. Spring scares me and I struggle to move forward when the snow starts to melt and the birds come back. And this Time of Year starts now. So now i need to focus on being happy. When I leave the library I'm going to finish up my thankful list...Lent is over in a week!

So, what is making me happy?

Mouse. I love Mouse more than anything and sometime I just can cry from all the love. We have so much fun together! And we talk about serious things and we talk about our future together. I wish i could be a happier person for him, but he understands and he tries the best he can at accepting me and trying to make me happy.

My TV shows. I can get lost in them. I like to watch Biggest Loser, The Tonight Show with Leno, Quaterlife, Project Runway and One Tree Hill. I don't watch a lot of tv because I'm rarely home, but when i do watch it, it's nice to just get lost for a little while!

My classes. I love learning and going to school. And last night in my education class I received a lot of compliments about my contributions to our discussion. I felt like I knew the material and I liked being appreciated.

Taco Bell. I eat a lot of Taco Bell. :) Bean Burritos and fire sauce. I really like the comments on the packets.

Taking baths. Except I usually fall asleep in the bath tub lately...but I still love them.

So, I am happy some of the time! Monday nights are rough because I don't have much to do...but that's usually when I take a long bath....Tuesday nights i have Biggest Loser to watch, Wednesday and Thursday nights I have class and Friday, Saturday and Sunday nights I have mouse.

I just wish that I loved my job. Today wasn't so bad...my boss still jokes around with me so I feel liked....but I don't think she trusts me much :( I'm working on it. Big meeting Tuesday night!! Maybe things will change?