Escapist's Diary

Things i'm frustrated with...a rant or two

first of all something funny:

 The guys said that the best thing Green ever did was introduce me to Mouse. That made me feel good. Really really good.

Second of all. I am sick and tired of my job already. There is this kid who literally just beats me and kicks me. And secretly today I cried. I had it under control in like a minute...but this kid just wants to push me to my limits...and i'm probably already there. And the center just keeps giving him more and more breaks. Sure, he may be having troubles at home...but that is not a legitimat enough excuse for me to be bruised by the child. everyone has issues, he shouldnt be allowed to get away with this.

plus, i'm also feeling inadaquate at my job. in a few weeks i'm going to be these people's boss and i can't even figure out how to mix shaving cream with food coloring. man, i screwed that up big time.

the kids totally didn't listen to me today. i wonder how long it is going to take for them to give me some respect. i seriously am still looking for another new job. this one is so frustrating and i'm not satisfied with it at all. i'm not even getting the hours i need!

i went out to Houghton this weekend and went to a couple of parties (actually, it was just one giant party)...and people still hit on me...new people tho this time. i dont know what to do about that still. all mouse does is get jealous. and i think that encourages me to be more flirtacious. i dont know. we talked about it. we also talked about how i felt really ignored last week. he's kind of frustrating to talk to about that because he just gets really upset and hates himself. he wont talk about it until i make him. and i stop crying in like 5 min. he takes forever. oh well. so, things are good between us again.

going back home next week. going grocery shopping at my parents because i can't afford food. lame. i just bought mouse's valentines day gift...he'll probably hate it.

ummm, that's all. oh, i have a bladder infection. that sucks.