Escapist's Diary

So

So i've been feeling kind of down lately...kind of blue...sleeping a lot and whatever....and i'm sick of it. really, i'm not getting anywhere and i'm not getting any better. the less i talk to ppl the worse i feel. you know what i mean?

i'm going home this weekend and maybe that will change things. maybe i need to see some brand new babies and eat a ridiculous amount of chocolate in order to feel better. Mouse is going to be there too, so maybe that will improve my mood? but even with him i'll drift back into my state of mind and he gets confused. well, he knows about it, but i don't think he really understands that him smiling at me is going to fix it.

i need something to keep my going. graduation? i hung up my gown yesterday with the cap and the tassel...but that's all i have. mouse says i worry too much. but honestly, i have no idea where my life is going and i have no idea where i'm going to be living in 38days. i have very little to plan for and i'm trying to plan like i'm moving down to State...but I dont want to plan for that. i want to go up north! but with my luck, my life, or lack of life....that won't happen.

i need to get my butt into gear. what makes me happy?